My Journal on Nov 22nd, 2019 — Today, I’m a master of procrastination
Perhaps some other days as well
Let me tell you why it is the topic for my journal today.
First story! If you’ve read my Journal on Nov 21st, you will know that I’m working on the filming project for my company. So to be more detailed, I’m the leader of this project as literally, I’m the one who is working on it. From brainstorming the ideas, to writing script, then picking out the actors, and even in charge of the editing part. That seems to be a lot of work, but the only thing that burdens me is about the communication with the actors.
I got the ideas of how the shoots will turn out, I got the tools, materials and software ready to make a move and I even got the movements of each scene to be showed. But the only thing that I haven’t got is actors! The leading of the scene, the vital of the set, and I have not yet got one (while I need 4 actually).
So I need to ask them to join, as they are my colleagues, it is very easy to approach them. I could use several ways from Slack, call, or even face to face discussion, so after having a clear idea and script, I planned to ask them today about joining my project (which they are not allowed to reject). As I do not want to create tension and any discomfort between me and them, I honestly do not know how to open and talk with them about this, without creating any forces.
As I afraid of not being able to make it, I started procrastinating. In the morning, I would say: they must be focusing on their work right now so I should not distract them, I will talk to them in the early afternoon. Then in early afternoon, I would say to myself: It’s still early as they just got their lunch break, let’s do it in 1 hour later. Then 1 hour later, I’m on my work, so perhaps postpone another hour would not affect anything. An hour later, I saw them ordering snacks, I should not bother them, let’s them finish their brunch and I’ll talk to them afterwards. Afterwards, plus 1 more hour, I just realize that the working hours will end in 30 minutes. OMG, time flies, only 30 minutes left and I won’t be able to discuss all details with them. So as a very fast thinker, I said: I’ll do it on Monday thennn!
So hell yeahhh! Up to now, none of them know that they’re gonna be in my project.
Second story ~ Do you know what I do during the whole day while thinking when I should talk to the actors? I searched for pet, specifically, a puppy. Why? Because I want to own one!!! If you’re asking what would be the thing I’m procrastinating on, let me tell you. My parents don’t like pet and I need to ask for their permission before getting one.
Yes, just like what you’re thinking about, I did not ask my parents as I planned that I would do it today. And do not ask me about the reason as I would just say: I’m tooooo lazy and I can tell them tomorrow.
What else? My third story ~ I need to prepare and write email to school in order to apply for Bachelor course, but I still have not done it. And don’t you ask me about the reasons again as I can tell you millions of it but none of that would be able to claim my innocence.
And there are a lot more of small things that I did not do today but I’m too sleepy now to talk about it. But generally, you know why I call myself a master of procrastination today. Ah, this is another interesting story but I managed to defeat it.
I was lying on my bed, wandering around and around watching movies, surfing Facebook, texting my friends and thinking If I should journal. So the total time that I consume just to decide whether I should do it takes up to 3 hours. Fortunately, I was able to get my consciousness back this time and got myself to do it. But imagine If I spend 3 hours everyday just for deciding to write a journal, I would have lost one eight of my whole life.
I bet that’s enough for today so I’m gonna end my day here! I’m going to sleep nowwww